Jose says.....

I need to find a family! Yes, Jose Cuervo told me to find myself a family for real tonight!



I was literally sipping on a concoction of Jose, orange juice, and cherry liqueur; essentially my all time favorite, Tequila Sunrise, when the thought violently landed in my psyche.



Truthfully, I've felt that way for quite a while recently. The more I think about my immediate family and our interactions the more I am saddened generally. Wow, I can't believe I actually said it. But, I am usually disappointed with the outcomes.



It appears that chaos is ruled as okay in my family. Along with betrayal, back-stabbing, slander, sexual indiscretions, disrespect, and a total disregard for others feelings. Unfortunately, I think so many members are just afraid to take a stand against this bull shit. It shouldn't ever be allowed and overlooked. That only makes the behavior worsen.



Sometimes I think, no matter how hard you try to live by example, some folks just can't see the light of day and act accordingly. To me I think it is a direct effect of "selfishness" outright. You don't teach selfishness, you become it by not caring about others whether connected by blood or not. I'm sure this is available in all families to a degree but mine has an over abundance I think!



This has bothered me emotionally for an entire year. I have voiced my concerns to the immediate members of my family to no avail. They appear to understand what I have been saying but have yet to address it personally. To that I say, to each his own. That's the overwhelming consensus. I'm done with this topic.